*lowest life form*
wahHah!~
recently i m a fan of my own tag board.
well.so much so that i have a good laugh like for the past 2 days

Attending family n youth
i tot i have heard quite a number of weird ppl doing weird things
but hey!
i got one tagging my board.

really kinda thank her or him or it for being so concern about me.
about my past relationship
well.guess she din really have a place to voice out IT's opinion.
i shall be good n let her do it on my tag board n entertain my friends!

anyway.something very interesting i heard my FNY lecturer say today
here it goes.
3 doctors determined that a man (lets call him Opa) will be dying in 3 months time because of cancer.
So since, Opa tot he only have 3 months left, he decide to have fun and enjoy life.
so for the 2 months.he went on crusing, he smoke the best cigar, he drank the best wine, he enjoyed his life to the fullest w/o worries n stress.
so went he came back.he got a death date from his doctor.n he started preparing his funeral n stuff like that.
however when he had another round of the Xray after the vacation n preparation.
HIS CANCER CELL ARE ALL GONE!!!
and he continued living for like another 10 years or so.
well miracle? biomedical effect?
haha.
well, maybe mr chan is trying to do the same thing n see if he can get the same effect.
But how on the hell, will he enjoy his life n be happy when the kids in school are always making him vomit blood n mary bay giving him so much work? haha
should have askk him to do some research on that before he try out.
i told my dad bout the story n told him the bottom line is to be happy n control the stress level.
coz i think he is going to have depression soon
hope this life n death kinda story can help him

and for your info
there is this psycho-neuro-immunology that make wonders
our brain will actually produce Serotouin and Dopamine (we so call chemical)
to lift up our mood.or rather make us feel happy
and research says that it will be greatly produced when u are IN LOVE or u Excerise.
N to those single.Good news!
Excercsing will actually produced the same amout of the chemical as when u are in love.
So no worries.we can live as happy.
haha.=p

And one more will be enodpmines.is sorta like a natural pain killer our brain will produced when u are happy.
unbelievable?
when u are injected with morphine it is actualli to increase the enodpmines produced and that way your pain will be relieve.
but now w/o medication jus being happy and luffing all the way can cure u
really worth trying!
so next time round when u fall n get injured
instead of growling n crying
try laughing out loud.maybe it will help!

Bottom line is Everyone please be happy! dun get upset by the morons n idiots around u.neither should u get upset or too stress up those exam papers.=p

shannie love
10:12 PM

*Controlling*
WohoO!~
Thanks pals for the SUPPORT!
anyway.i m able to control my emotion recently le.
its going to be a sunny day for me again.

my feeling is like from

She Bu De (Cai Yi Lin)

http://mp3.baidu.com/m?f=ms&tn=baidump3lyric&ct=150994944&lf=2&rn=10&word=%C9%E1%B2%BB%B5%C3&lm=-1

to..

Mei Na ME Ai Ta (Fan Wei Qi)

http://mp3.baidu.com/m?tn=baidump3lyric&ct=150994944&lm=-1&f=1&word=%C3%BB%C4%C7%C3%B4%B0%AE%CB%FB

*Click the Link for lyrics.coz i can't figure a way out to make chinese characters show

both best describe how i feel!
especially mei na me ai ta!
whenever i have the urge to go back to him or call him.
I will play this song n woo~
it works damm well!
haha.=p
recommanded songs for healing.

Chinese New Year coming which also means Year End EXAM coming
Sian!~
the 2nd week of Feburary
WHOLE DAMM WEEK!~
wtf.

Neverthelss after that will be attachment straight!
cool!~
i m excited to meet those good people n morons in the working world
see war battling everyday
everyone stabbing one another behind
gossip from ear to ear
girls have sex with thier boss to get promoted.
haha
i dunno y i tot of that suddenly
guess is because my agent told me that in the insurance industry!
LADy Agent do that for commission!
wohhoo!~
CHEAP!
But they are still making their body to work.
at least they get the money
cannot say cheap.
coz they got what it takes to do it!
I dun have so...
still CHEAP
haha!~

it wuld be mine first work with pay
thou pathetic but still something
Waiting!~
I will sure complaint
So do get your ears ready for that!

shannie love
12:10 AM

*A Different Feeling*
02060813
almost a week i broke his heart
i broke my heart
just because i can't commit myself for this relationship.
even though he showed me endless care and concern
letting me lead my own life
but i felt it was different
there was no communication no outing no patience for each other
or maybe it was me not giving him any chances to do so
So how can i even request for more when i dun put in my 100%

it was harder than i expected
i always tell ppl around me when they break up "the next one will be better"
i told myself that, but when it comes to bed time when all my projects are done my friends are not around, i begin to miss him miss the relationship.
keep asking myself if i have made the right choice.
always coming up with reasons to make myself feel better.
often failed.guess i really need time.1 year 7 months 1 day is not easy to let go!

i admit that i m alittle jealous when i see him n his ger fren picture (thou he claim she wants to take with him n i think they look compactable)
it was so different.i choose to let go but not completely.

he got me a new midium size bb tazzie n a bb tazzie pencil case
he said he wanted to win me back.
but i cooly say "aiyah dun waste time la"
i really hope i meant it
coz if i dun
i will be stabbing him again
haha

with him.i always tell my friends i can't do this i can't do that.i can't go here i can't go there
without him.i dun feel like doing or going anyhere he once forbid me to do or go.
i begin to not understand myself.
the life i wan seems to be different
crying behind some stupid laughter.
shut myself under the blanket
how optimistic!

well life isn't that bad after all.
at least i still got frens around me.
mentor encouraging me
projects filling me up
my oncoming sec one and the campcraft team to train well
more challenging planning to be done
exams coming up
attachment on the way
a new start!
a new begining!

i dun ask y ppl become frens (from a relationship)
so i dun like the idea of letting anyone noe y i n him became frens
cause i feel there is no point as its between two and not anyone can understand
if i feel u will understand i will tell you!
not dao.but i think is jus pointless

p.s Thank Pei Chee n Ms Loy for the concern when i was so lost!

shannie love
11:43 PM